When I was in middle school, I saw female bodybuilders on TV and was disgusted by it. Then, when I turned 16 or 17 and heard some guys talking about a strong girl, I decided to look one up on the Internet to see what they looked like. Somehow, I came across a porn site with bodybuilders and ever since then I started looking at that in addition to regular porn.
I wasn’t sexually turned on by it, however, until I turned 22. Ever since then, I’ve looked at it at least two times a week. In real life, however, I was attracted to average to slender-sized girls and I eventually got involved in a relationship and I thought I might be able to let the porn go. She didn’t want to have sex during our entire relationship, so unfortunately, I continued to look at this porn even though I was turned on by her.
Now a couple years later, I’m not turned on by regular women at all (including porn). The only thing that turns me on is porn with female bodybuilders and I hate it because it originally disgusted me and I’ve seen people on the Internet say that means you’re gay if you look at that stuff.
I want to be able to get it out of my mind and I want to be able to be attracted to regular women again. Is there anything I can do? I don’t think I could bring this up to a psychologist because it’s too embarrassing to talk about.
Even though you are embarrassed bringing this up with a psychologist give it a try. Every one has a different approach and style and if you get one with some experience they have likely heard something like this before. Give it a try. My therapist told me on our first session there isn’t anything he hasn’t heard so do not feel uncomfortable. Good Luck.
Why not embrace your fetish? It does not mean you are gay. How silly! It isn’t anything to be ashamed about.
I would not worry about social taboos. You have got one life and it is your body, so experiment, have fun
Quote, The Joker; I’m not a monster, I’m just ahead of the curve.